WHAT AM I PRETENDING NOT TO NOW?
It has started few weeks ago, when I notice that I have slipped back in couple of things. All my blogs were on time till I had some company from out of town, because we took them out for few days to Whistler, few day to Victoria, then around town in Vancouver, which it left me very little time to do some of the things. Read the OG all the time, the morning was on time, but the afternoon one sometimes got & night was always late, the Service cards, WPOA cards, giving & receiving cards only once & exercises for all the weeks were done no matter what is was at night. What was I really thinking, if I had done everything else why not the other things?
Didn’t get time to read all stack of the index cards all the time; the Sits all the time, listen to the recording all the time, sometimes the Press Release, the DMP, didn’t always go into the Alliances area either. This is all the FEAR I have in my mind, I f I don’t get my work done on time that I won’t pass in class. I want to be Proud of myself & Worthy of How far I have come & fell behind. Sometimes I feel I My plate is too full, then on the other hand I find it is empty, start to feel ANGER, HURT, GUILTY & UNWORTHY at myself.
After watching the video of the Divorce Case made me think of, what the hell am I worried about, in that clips tells you make a list, is making the list going to help me overcome the fear I have. How will that help me? Won’t be hurt by someone or something in my life? Sometime I feel I can so much, but can’t make people happy on matter what I do for them… yet I feel guilty thinking I must have done something wrong to them! This is I have to say this week till next time…..
“I AM WHOLE, PERFECT, STRONG, POWERFUL, LOVING, HARMONIOUS & HAPPY.” “I ALWAYS KEEP MY PROMISE.”